A New Life

I could talk about our new life that will start in less than six weeks when we move, but I’m not.  This morning as I watched the minus sign slowly turn into a plus sign, I was overwhelmed…with happiness, with surprise, and with the knowledge that this would change everything.  This is not my first baby, and certainly not my first pregnancy, but there is something so special that happens the moment that you realize you are carrying another human being.  I realized that I will again get to feel my baby flutter around, and eventually stretch me to my limits.  Feeling a baby move is my favorite part of pregnancy, and definitely one of my favorite things in the whole world.  We weren’t trying for another baby, but as my husband likes to say, “Everyone is supposed to have a ‘whoops!’”

                This gives us a timeline to work with and shoot for.  Having a child generally makes me long for security even more than normal.  This feels a little like a test.  Is my dad watching from heaven with God and some angels saying, “Watch this! It’s gonna get interesting.”  Is the other side secretly hoping I began to doubt God’s sovereignty, and start freaking out?  I don’t think that it’s any accident that I’m reading in the Old Testament about the children of Israel wandering in the wilderness.   Whining in their case always brought disaster, despite that God always came through for their needs…so I’m not going to whine, but trust that this child will be an amazing blessing.  I wasn’t planned either, and my mom has told me over and over how glad she is that God planned me for her. 

 On January 1st of this year, I read the same passage of scripture twice within a couple minutes of itself—once in a book I was reading and once in a devotional.  I took it as a sign that it was my verse for this year.  It is Isaiah 43: 1b-3b.  It says, “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.  ² When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. ³ For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior…”  No matter what comes, I know that He has it all under control.  I can’t wait to hold this next little one in my arms, and tell them how glad I am that God planned this child just for me.